Lazy dumb fools...

I have worked with the same lazy people for over two years now. What have I come to discover? One is pretty evil and other is a vegetable! I have seen laziness come and go, but these two are pretty malicious. It could be culturally because of their caste system, kissing up to the Caucasian because someone how they are superior in their eyes.
I found it funny because they have been there a lot longer than I have and they are still working the same position. Teamwork does not exist in their cultural, but does in the world of nurses (or at least should). I know I sound racist, but it has gotten to the point where I see it all the time with this ethnicity.
Example #1: At my workplace, lets call them the brown noser and vegetable. Brown noser acts busy, but really is doing nothing, she is searching for mistakes that other people make. Then there is the vegetable that is not only manipulative, but blows things out of proportion. Those two love going to the "DON" to show the mistakes of others, which I think is terrible. Nurses are supposed to have each other's back, but sadly everyone wants to get ahead, only to be found walking in place. These two have never no idea how to critically think, yet alone admit a patient without passing it along.
I have been stabbed in the back like anyone else, but this time it has gone to far! Nurses make mistakes all the times, even the ones that claim they have never made a med error is full of crap! I am the type that tries to be helpful, even though I know it is there laziness.
The brown noser loves to preach about her Christianity, but we all know she's a two faced hypocrite that sleeps wonderfully at night. She bitched to me about wanting to go to church, but had to go back to her country because her relative was dying, WTF?! Then there is the vegetable that goes on and on about how she doesn't have to work, trying to make it seem like she's the bored housewife. This is the one that loves to give me parenting advise, please woman! I know my marriage is stronger than hers because I do not believe in infidelity and secondly I have a strong relationship with my children. Sending your children to a fancy school, trying to be a tiger mom, is not called parenting!
Example #2 My children have a friend from this particular culture, she was telling me her parents want her to be a doctor. I asked her if that is what she wants to do and her response was "they make a lot money". Oh boy! Money is not everything and it is sad that her parents have instilled this in head. You become a doctor because you want to help people or discover a cure for an incurable disease. Not because of money! May be this is why the idea of being a doctor is no longer prestigious as it used to be. Of course I never said any of this to her.
Example #3 My neighbors. They have been pretty friendly to us, but when they have issues with stuff they think my husband is going to come over and fix it. I am sorry our cheap fucks, go hire someone, my husband is not your handyman! They are also the ones that sit with our neighbors that never acknowledge us (they are Caucasian) because in their mind they are more superior.

I pity these fools because money and backstabbing is not going to get you far in life. You will be poor in your heart treating others as servants. I worked with a resident in a long term facility and their family treated everyone like trash. I'm sorry, your mother is a Medicaid recipient, technically my tax paying dollars is paying for her stay. If you are so wealthy and high class you would put her in a fancy facility!
I look at vegetable and brown noser, I feel sorry for them. They will always think reporting someone to upper management will get them far, but sadly you are seen as the snitch and not a team player. They have been working at the same facility, passing along their work, and tattle telling the entire time. Sadly, you do not have the manager title behind your name and your co-workers all hate you.

I hate mother's day

I do think mother's should be celebrated, but I personally hate this hallmark holiday! I guess you can you say it has always over powered my birthday, since it lands on the same week every year. It is like being born in December and sharing it with Jesus. It just kind of sucks, although I have nothing against the man. This goes back to my first mother's day, listening to my spouse tell me that I am not his mother. Yup, OUCH! It still continues on, I will get a happy mother's day from my children, friends, and co-worker, but not him. Fast forward 11 years and still nothing, but I have learned to except disappointment, and just to embrace it.
This year on May 9 my husband tells me that the kids really want to get me something for my birthday and mother's day because they forgot his. I said I really do not want anything, but to spare their feelings I said I guess we can go out to eat. The day of Mother's day I felt tired, from working a double two days before. I simply stated that everywhere is way too crowded and I need to go to Target. I was told to stay home because he was going to take his mother and the kids out to eat. At first I was little hurt, but he does have a right, after all it is his mom and I am only the mother of his children.

Where have all the good preceptors gone?

Bullying is sad thing that happens even as an adult. This day had seem so surreal, but the reality is I truly am crushed. Today I had a meeting with my manager regarding my 90 day review, pretty much to tell me I was terminated. As I think about everything that has happened through out my entire training process horizontal bullying was happening. The first weeks seemed manageable, and everyone was friendly, although it felt like high school again. Then came month two, the level of acuity got a bit harder as I tried to process everything. I definitely thought I was learning a lot more, but nervous because my experience was so limited form the background I came from. Somewhere along the lines of week 10 the nightmare from hell began. The person I thought was supposed to be my trainer turned into my worst enemy. I felt judged, undermined, and just flat out bullied. I never told a soul about how my stress and anxiety level was through the roof. I tried my best to smooth things over in the end, but it was too late. I had learned you need a good teacher to teach and guide you, not point out your ever flaw and belittle you in a passive aggressive way. I had worked extremely hard to get to where I am just to be shot down and lose ever bit of confidence left inside me. I really do not understand what exactly happened that made me not qualified. I thought nursing was something you learn and grow with, not be expected to know everything in that very moment. I do have critically thinking skills, may be we do not think a like, but I am very capable of judging right from wrong. Time management is something we all learn on our own, I may not be as fast as you, but I see your mistakes too. I have caught nurses giving the wrong dose, or hanging the wrong bag. I am not the one that forgot to put in tele order and the patient did not get charged for it. I may not be brand spanking new, but to the acute care I am. I was a bit more cautious and took my time, I did not want to make a mistake. Maybe my reports were not as thorough because I have not learned how to read the monitors and could not tell you the rhythm. Each unit reported differently, some wanted more, others did not. Did we all forget what it was like to be new or did you think you were born that way. I want to thank Hawaii for leaving me jobless knowing I have four children to care of because of her lack of insecurity. The state be seem beautiful on the outside, but the angry volcano lives within. I thought to ADVOCATE was to be on a person's side, boy was I wrong! Did I choose the wrong career? Was it not my time to shine? I was angry and spiteful, but now I pity the state because she was not any more knowledgeable than I. Good teachers produce great leaders, unfortunately I was produced into a reject….I did have some that were excellent and let me learn on my own, there were a few that were on your ever move, but I will never forget the one that got me fired. The best one I had ever had is the one that taught me most and she still is my mentor.

Vacation

It was that time of the year for our annual trip out west. I would say Disney puts on one heck of a production. The best part of being at Disney was to be in the middle of Radiator Springs! I mean to see Mater and Lighting McQueen live, driving around and singing happy birthday to my son. I would have to say although I did not get to dress up as a Disney character, I did get to channel my inner Cinderella for that moment. The price of Disney has gone up in the past few years, but to see the look on my children's faces is priceless. Another comment I must add is regarding the deliciously scrumptious english toffee they sell on main street. Initially I was upset my husband wanted to purchase english toffee for $12! After trying it, I would say it was the best $12 ever spent.