After reading a blog of an angry teenager, I started to
think back when I was once that age. I grew up in a household where my mother
was an over bearing control freak. I understood being grounded during my high
school years, but when it went into my twenties, she made my life hell. I grew
up going to church not out of my own free will, but to accompany her and look
like good children in front of her fake friends. I remember being in my
twenties and having to be home by 11pm or having her call my friend’s parents because
I was no where to be found. After getting married and moving way out of town
the only feeling I have toward her is pure resentment. She gets upset that I do
not call her on holidays or her birthday, but I have no desire to maintain a
relationship with her. I know my mother is mentally not stable, but she is
extremely toxic and that is something I do not need in my life. I see parents all the time just
screaming at their children, but never listening to their side of the story. Even
if my child has done wrong, they still deserve the right to a fair mommy trial.
I don’t ever want to become like my mother. When I pass one day I want my
children to cry because they loved me and will miss me, not be sad because they
were never able to have the relationship they wish they would liked to have had.
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